gone

This
Is the place where I sit,
Quietly watching the world pass by
Outside,
While collapsing slowly, all pretense
Gone, for this is the quiet time
And all of the noise outside only
Reminds me of the quiet inside,
Like a ringing bell or shouting voices
Thudding dully through 2 metres of water,
Breathe held, deep, until lungs and
Eyes burn, then let go in an out-
Ward gush of bubbled exhalation,
Taking the stress of too long held up
Right back, stiff upper lip crumbling
Beneath the weight released, held
For so long day and night, nowhere
To crawl inside and die a little
Only to be reborn, like the phoenix,
Life from ashes, dust to breathe just
As it has always been, from the
Beginning,
A pulse, the rhythm of worklifelove
Everything thumping through my veins,
The pant of my forever breeze, softly
Blowing through colddeepdark chasms
In my mind, just so, yes
This sounds so much like one I knew
Before, the one gone now, forever
Yet far from forgotten, breath held
For another moment, pause in time
The city awakening, corner chosen,
Pop music ringing tinnitus in my ears,
Reminding me of the degredation of
Time, lower back and knees reminding
Me I am not only human but also
Older now,
Am I any wiser?
Is wisdom only holding your
Tongue, to figure it out before
You speak, or is it simply suffering
Enough, for long enough in silence,
Alone, to understand and share all
Else, everyone else’s suffering and
So realise there is no need to speak
Out, for all that needs to be said
And done, will be so, for life works
All things out in the end.

To take part, without
Fighting the flow, to be one
At peace, without
Giving in, rolling over, giving up
Quitting, letting go, without
Falling down, so easy to say
Yet so very hard to do,
Would you not agree?

Yes you.

trust

Trust, pounded into
My head and heart, one
Sledgehammer shouted ”
Liar!”after another, fiercepointing
Finger, bent middle knuckle
Leading reverseup to twisted
Sneer, pursed lips ever so un-
Kissable, hatredlaced eyes, high
Flushed cheeks, ragehateshitvenom
Piercing my deepest unborn self
Like burning spear of self-
Doubt unleashed, now amber cinders
Resemble glowing catseyes of rage
Unearthed by being lied to, where
It hurts the most, where the largest
Hole of self-doubt remains, and
Yet, mother earth came up and
Down to succomb blind fury, before
Life-born embers ignited to burn
Paper thin todayreality, only adding
To and spreading the misery of
Childhood forsaken, yet the pause
Saved me from myself, maybe for
The first time, hopefully not
The last.

sun-soaked slide

Long day, justly run
Short battles far from won,
‘Nother bite-sized chunk
Of timed daylight spent, watching
But not watching the hours
As they went, crawling, not so much
As flying by, work done meticulously
Like life-long held sigh,
Far too few
Lessons for hours burnt
Another day, spent
All too soon, lucky today’s
Outside sunlit room,
Life’s own laughter, nature’s kiss,
Vitamin D, sorely missed.

Soft breeze, tastes of sand,
Promising summer, ever closer
To hand, this last rhyme, nearly spun,
Work is over, time for home, laughter
Love and fun.

Dearest family awaits, one last
Run, baked trainbox packed,
Or half-so filled, all soaked in summer’s
Promise-tinted rose, chilled and happy
Slow and warm, this is the time
When calm is the norm.

Even three, ever so slightly
Sloshed workmate friends, wend
Happily homeword, no animosity
To hand. This is the time, when sap
Arises, so look round, eyes wide
For life’s little surprises.

Happy summer begins my friends!
Let’s hope this one,
Never ends. 😉

Free PDF version of Poemetics: Suspiciously Cute, Ode to a Total Stranger available here…

Poemetics: Suspicously Cute, Ode to a Total Stranger

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